Ezinne Akam Blog

Journals

  • EL-ROI: My God Who Sees My Pain

    EL-ROI: My God Who Sees My Pain

    My eyes are moist as I write this post. I try, believe me. I try not to place my identity in my pain. Jesus sees all. He knows everything even before they happened. But why didn’t He stop it from happening, right? There is a purpose to this, right? Why does it hurt so much? Read more

  • Classism: The Game Nobody Agreed to Play

    Classism: The Game Nobody Agreed to Play

    My first post on Substack! When God created the Earth, He didn’t cellotape “reserved” signs on certain lands or hand out VIP passes to a select few. There were no government-restricted areas, no corporate-owned resources, no invisible barriers keeping people in their place. If you found gold, you could keep it. If you wanted to Read more

  • How Toxic Productivity Gave Me PCOS And Why I Will Never Perform For My Family’s Love Again

    How Toxic Productivity Gave Me PCOS And Why I Will Never Perform For My Family’s Love Again

    A First-Born Daughter’s Story Of Chronic Stress, Financial Manipulation, And Choosing Herself For The First Time I have hid this story in my body for so long, but I can’t any further or I will explode and die. Growing up as the second mother of the house, I was groomed to believe that being productive Read more

  • What Will People Say?

    What Will People Say?

    My Parents’ Default Question That Turned Me To a Rebel, a Runaway, and Eventually, My Own Autonomous Woman This is not a tell-it-all, but a necessary unpacking of the wounds I carried, and still carry. Trigger Warning: This essay contains descriptions of emotional, physical, and verbal abuse, parental neglect, and suicidal thoughts. Reader discretion is Read more

  • When A Nigerian Catholic Girl Stops Performing

    When A Nigerian Catholic Girl Stops Performing

    Is Religious Devotion the Only Way to Connect With God? Or Is It Just a Socially Acceptable Way To Be Seen as Holy? Growing up Catholic in Nigeria, I witnessed the beauty and the burdens of religious devotion. But as I got older, I began to question the distance between what we practiced and what Read more

  • Who is Regina? A Character You Won’t Forget

    Who is Regina? A Character You Won’t Forget

    Let’s talk about Regina, or as you’ll come to know her, Nkechi. She’s the heart of my debut novella, STRINGS, and the reason this story wouldn’t leave me alone for nine long years. Yes, NINE. This book started as scribbles in a notebook and on Whatsapp, back when I thought I was just writing fiction Read more